Lonely

Sometimes I Wish Things Were Different..
I Wish I Could Have Forgave Those Who Treated Me Like Shit..
If I Could Endure Heartache A Little Longer.. And Put Up With It..
I Wish I Could Rewind The Clock..
And Get My Life Back.. I Wouldn't Have Stopped..
But I Had To Let Go..
I Had To Show..
And Prove.. That I Meant Good-Bye..
I Wish I Could Get Back All Those Tears That I Cried..
And Save Them.. Covert Them To Tears Of Joy.. Of Happiness..
I Wish I Didn't Fold Under The Pressure.. Give into The Stress..
I Wish I Was Built To Handle Any Situation..
Could Talk Myself Into Staying..
Because This Single Shit..
I Don't Have The Patience To Endure It..
I Mean It's Meeting.. People.. Getting To Know Them..
Trying To Show Them.. That You're Different..
Give Off.. A Hint Of Independence..
But Also Show The Need For A Little Co-Dependence..
Fuck That..
Here's The Facts..
Love Hurts..
If You're It Doing Right.. And For What It's Worth..
Anyone Who Tells You Otherwise.. Isn't Real.. Let Alone.. Realistic..
And Then When You Finally Get Comfortable or Remotely Happy.. And Something Triggers It..
Our Ability To Shut Down.. Close Up.. At Every Little Incident..
So You Push Them Away.. A Defense Mechanism We've Perfected..
Claiming That You're Scared of Being Hurt, So You Push Them Away For Fear of Being Rejected..
We Hate The Idea Of Being Lonely, So We Allow People Who Have No Business Occupying Our Time..
Just To Fall For The Wrong People At The Wrong Time.. So When The Right One Comes Along, We Have No Space Literally Inside Our Minds..
We Do The Most.. Yeah Everything Backwards..
Instead of Friends, Relationship, Love, Then Sex.. We Randomize.. Sex, Friendship, and Lust.. Forgetting All the Other Factors..
We Only Look At Loneliness From A Negative Aspect..
Only Because Being Alone Means A State of Solitude, Instead of Appreciating The Time To Ourselves.. And The Fear of Not Wanting to Be Alone.. Fear Causes A Sudden Impact..
Afraid of Being Lonely.. So we React..
Whether The Reaction is Positive or Negative..
The Feelings Are The Same.. Everything is Relative..
Love is So Competitive..
Why?
The Fight For Real Love..
Lie?
The Struggle For True Love..
To Me?
You Put So Much Effort Into Love.. But Honestly What Has Love Given You..
Besides Heartache.. Yeah We Share Some Memories..
I Will Never Forget.. Our Chemistry..
We Go Through The Motions..
Full With Our Emotions..
And We Live.. We Learn..
Just Waiting On Our Turn..
With Love.. Until Then.. We're Lonely..