Vulnerability

This seems dangerous for me..
To show complete vulnerability..
Admit that I can Love you in any capacity..
I love the way you mentally stimpulate me..
Knowing that this could potentially..
Break Me..
Telling you this could geninuely..
Take Me..
As I cry when I write this..
The tears serve as positive affirmations..
That I can feel pain..
And I can't take being hurt again..
I try to open up about past experiences..
Triggering moments..
I devoted myself to the wrong ones..
I guess you win some and you lose some..
And I apologize if this poem doesn't rhymne..
It's just depressing thoughts that run through my mind..
I don't know what love is..
Unlike other people.. I pride myself on being honest..
This poem was supposed to be about love..
But Fuck it.. I'm an emotional thug..
These tears got me so fucked up.. Periodt..
Save it..
So yes, I'm toxic..
I replaced love with lust.. So I sin..
I'm sinner who wants redemption..
My past transgressions..
My sinful lessons..
We all could use some direction..
So when you ignore me..
With no warning..
Stop trying..
You can't see crying..
If I make a effort.. to be there..
To show you that I truly care..
Be honest with me..
Tell me that I'm not a priority..
Don't string me along..
Tell me what's wrong..
Give me the benefit..
And give me a chance to fix it..
So we can be friends again..
Love is inevitable..
I just hate to be exposed..
I hate being vulnerable..