Don't Judge Me..

If You Listen Very Closely.. You Can Hear What Seems to Be A Heartbeat..
Despite My Many Adversity..
And It Hasn't Been The Same Since The Last Time I Faced Intimacy..
Nevertheless It's Steady..
But I Doubt That It Will Ever Beat Like It Used Too..
Those Butterflies That Comes With That Feeling.. Of Completion..
The Perfect Combination.. Of Love and Happiness.. Some How I'm Missing The Right Ingredients..
I've Been Told That Love is Not For The Faint Of Heart..
Those Weary of Being Hurt.. Living Off Bad Decisions and Bitter Judgment..
Sometimes Requires Them to Question Every Intent..
If I Tried to Listen to My Heart.. Try To Understand Love and Life..
The Mind Compels Us To React On Instincts..
I've Hurt.. I've Spent Endless Nights Questioning My Existence..
Thinking This Time Was Different..
Struggling With My Opinions..
Got Harder to Tell Fact From Fiction..
I Searched For The Right One..
I Looked For Love.. Longed For Affection.. But It Seemed Like I Only Found Depression..
Heartache.. After Heartache.. Not To Mention..
Looking For Love in All The Wrong Places.. Went Against My Better Judgment.. And My Intuition..
I Dreamed About The Perfect Individual..
Tried to Remain Optimistic..
Had to Realize That Everyone Has Flaws.. So Looking For The Perfect Someone.. Seemed Unrealistic..
I Had Demands.. Standards For Myself.. So The Person That Was Meant For Me Should Have The Same Characteristics..
I Meet People.. I date..
I don't want to get married or be in relationshit situations so I guess it's just a love-hate..
I tell my secrets.. I like to cuddle.. I love when someone plays in my hair..
I like to fall a sleep on the phone with someone when they can't physically be there..
I hate love.. but I want someone to love me..
Either you can or you can't relate.. but please don't judge me..