Good bye Love

This will be the last time.. I speak on you..
The last time.. I think of you..
The funeral was beautiful..
The kinds words that I spoke about you were meaningful..
The tears that I cried for you..
The conversations I saved just to think of you..
Erasing our messages was peaceful..
Exchanges from you that gives me butterflies..
Were all built on lies..
The times that we vibed..
The tears that I cried for you..
The times that you made me cry..
Walking on eggshells..Trying not to challenge the lies..
Afraid to hear the word goodbye..
If they ever escape your lips..

Realizing that I'm settling for less..
Not knowing I would have to pick out a black dress..
And Think about all the beautiful moments..
The beautiful flowers that you sent everytime you fucked up..
You brought red roses when you cheated..
So I brought black roses for the bereavement..
You always planted seeds..
Some of truths, other of doubts that turned into weeds..
Not knowing that my garden had a snake..
You fed me bullshit and with every bite that I take..
Satisfied my hungry soul..
Knowing that I would believe every lie that you told..

You sit there while people speak so highly of you..
Smile while in the back of my mind.. I despise you..
Pretend to cry behind my dark shades..
Thoughts of you will no longer occupy my mental space..
As I watch people who I thought were our friends contantly take your side..
Provided your alibi..
For you to break the trust that I had..
Each night..
You stayed out and pretending that everything will be alright..
You just need space to breathe..
Thought I would leave..
This toxic triangle of us..
And maybe there was no one but I can't ignore your lust..
As I prepare to give the euology..
I wonder if I ever meant anything to you and everytime that you said you loved me..
I believed you..
So because of this.. I have to grieve you..
I thought that I needed you..
For every passionate kiss.. Every cry..
Goodbye..
And those reassuring hugs..
It's Goodbye My Love..