Pride...

And People Tell Me To Have It.. Maybe I'll Understand Pride When I Grow Older..
Carry My Pride.. On My Shoulders..
Everyday I Should Wake Up.. And When I Go Out Into The World.. Face It..
The Hate..
Face It..
Remarks..
Total Disregard..
For My Feelings..
The Resentment..
Just Wear It..
Bear It..
Pride..
I Look At The Colors.. The Rainbow..
A Symbol..
If It Was That Simple..
Maybe It Represents..
Me Facing All My Fears..
Maybe It The Rivers.. That I Cried.. My Tears..
After The Rain.. It Will.. Show.. It Will Appear..
And If You Ever Reach The End of It.. You'll Find Your Gold..
You'll Find Something Precious.. So I've Been Told..
I Guess I'll Have to See..
But Until Then.. It's Just Me..
Feels Like I'm Fighting..
Slowing Dying..
If Not Inside..
Then Out...
Depression..
Repression..
A Stored Collection..
Of My Memories..
Just In Case.. My Life Flashes Before Me..
I Can Smile..
Once In A While..
I Get Tired.. Of It All..
Thinking About Giving Death A Call..
But I Swear Death is The Easy Way Out..
And I Doubt..
That Anyone Will Miss Me..
I Wish I Could Go Back to The Innocent Me..
Pride..
And How Could This..
Word..
Pride..
Everyone Telling Me.. That I'm Not Normal.. Why?
Like I'm A Mistake.. Like I Lost Me..
Because I Don't Love The Way Other's Love.. My Love is Different..
To Be More Specific..
My Love is For My Same Gender.. I Love Her.. She Loves Me..
And Even If She Doesn't Love Me.. Another Woman Will.. You'll See..
And Based On The Way I Think.. I'm A Disgrace..
Those Eyes.. The Whispered Words Behind My Back.. Because You're Not Man Enough to Say It To My Face..
Pride..
Why Should I Hide..
My Pride..
People Judge Me..
Old Friends I Used to Have..
Are Now Friends of The Past..
Family..
What Family..
People Who Criticize Me..
Tried to Analyze Me..
Telling Me That I Need to Pray..
Hoping One Day..
I Wake Up And Say..
I'm A Changed..
Pride..
My Lifestyle..
Would Never Be For You To Understand..
And The Fact That You Can't Hold Me Hand..
In The Time Of My Need..
Asking God.. On My Knees.. Please Give Me Strength.. Please..
I Lay In My Bed..
In The Dark.. But Yet I Keep Thinking.. Oh The Color Of Red..
Pride..
Orange, Yellow, Green..
Pride..
Blue, Indigo, and Violet..
Pride..
Never Knew.. That Those Colors.. Mean So Much.. Just to Mean So Little.. You Will Never Understand How I Could Possibly Feel..
I've Lost Friends.. People Who Couldn't Deal..
Lost In Lies... Died Because They Couldn't Face Facts.. Life To Them Was Just To Real..
Couldn't Cope..
Lost Hope..
In Themselves...
So Today.. I'm Taking A Stand..
Against The Violence.. The InTolerance...
When All We Want To Be.. Is Treated The Same..
Not To Be Pushed.. Shoved.. Judged.. Called Out Of Our Names..
I Can No Longer.. Sit Around.. And Watch People..
Pride.. Take A Stand.. Never Let People Treat You..
Disrespect..
Question.. Add Suspect..
Blame You For A Crime That You Will Never Commit..
I'm Sick of It..
Pride..
You Never Know How Far Your Actions Will Go..
That Same Person.. Who You Bullied.. Picked On.. Showed..
That Life Will Always Be Hard Because Of Actions Made.. That Are Out Of Their Hands.. And Times Have Changed..
May Feel Like Life is Already Hanging In The Balance.. So They Too Should Hang..
Another Death.. Hate Crime.. And It's A Shame..
We Had To Lose Someone Because Of Another's Ignorance..
Grievance..
Saying Good Bye To Someone.. We Shouldn't Have Too..
Pride..
What Does it Really Mean To You..

Me, Myself And I...

I Swear I Can't Blame Anyone But Me..
Everything..
I Wished That I Could See..
Every Time..
Love is Supposed to Be Blind..
And I'm Following You Foolishly..
And Eventually..
You Become Unaware..
To The Facts.. So Unprepared..
So Taken Back From The Rights..
You Stop Putting Up A Fight..
You Stop Looking For The Wrongs..
Your Guard and Walls are Slowing.. Breaking Down..
Meanwhile..
Yeah.. Until..
One Day.. We All Call It Free Will..
Wakes You Up.. And You No Longer Feel Safe..
Now You Have To Face..
You No Longer Feel.. At Ease..
You Don't Know What To Believe..
So Much Tension..
In The Room..
I Don't Even Want to Look At You..
You Walk In.. And I Walk Out..
Considering Leaving You.. Wondering If It's You.. I Can Do Without..
I Look At You.. I See Love.. Until You Open Your Mouth..
Bullshit And Doubts..
Lies Comes Out..
Triggers.. Incidents.. Dates..
Times.. Places.. And Our Fate..
Which We Both Used To Hold.. So How..
Do I Hold The Judgement.. Our Future.. Our Right Now..
I Used to Tell Myself.. That I Should Never Get To Close.. Should Fall..
Anything..
Reminds Me.. Of Happiness..
Anytime..
I Would Have Never Hesitated To Give You The Best of Me.. Best of This..
Going to Sleep With You.. Dreams Of Infidelity..
Slowly Turning Into Nightmares.. Reason To Why I'm Feeling So Lonely..
When I'm Not Alone.. When It's An Us..
We Was Together.. And Even That To You.. Never Seem Like It Was Enough..
A Verbal Commitment..
Thinking To Myself.. That This Time.. Things Will Be Different..
You Were My Happy Ending..
But Sometimes.. The Ending.. Never Seems To End The Way You Want It Too.. Not To Mention..
The Fact That I Would End Up.. Heart Broken.. From You..
Yeah You Tell Me.. That You're Hurting Too..
But I Can't See It..
You Honestly.. Can't Feel Me..
You Can't Relate..
Because At The Moment.. You're Still Trying to Replace..
Me..
Erase..
Me..
I've Haven't Seen A Single Tear.. Fall From Your Eyes..
Haven't Heard You Even Say You're Sorry.. Haven't Yet Apologized..
So How Can You Say.. You Agree..
And You Know What I Need..
I Beg To Differ.. I Disagree..
Please..
If You're Going to Leave.. Please Stop Making Excuses and Just Go..
But Before You Leave.. I Want You To Know..
That Once You Walk Away.. There is No Way in Hell I'll Ever Let You Come Back..
And As A Matter Of Fact..
Exit..
Just As Swiftly As You Made An Entrance.. But This Time It's Different..
And As I Watch You Walk Out of My Life..
I Made A Promise To Myself.. That At The End Of The Day.. It's Just Me, Myself and I..