My Vows

I never had anyone that made me feel like home..
And when you're gone..
I'm patiently waiting for you to come back to me..
I ready to create a family with you..
I appreciate the little things that you do..
When God said the that he would send the perfect person to me..
I honestly didn't believe..
I prayed for you.. And I pray for you..
And when I thought you were too good to be true..
You continue to show and prove..
You make it so easy to Yes.. I do..
And everyday I want to prove to you..
Why you're the only guy that's for me..
You're patient with me..
You trust me..
Your honesty..
Your credibility..
Your vulnerability..
You crave me..
And I to you..
You're simple irresistable..
You allow me to be 100% me..
Completely..
And I now why it never worked with the others..
They were just lovers..
Stops on my destination to you..
And when I look at you..
I see you..
The real you..
The person that loves unconditionally..
The person who will eventually..
Be the father to my kids.. Make a family..
I see the father that you could be..
When people say that they dreamed of these moments.. Now I understand..
You were apart of God's plan..
And I couldn't imagine you being my man..
You being the man of my dreams.. If I'm being honest..
So I promise..
I vow to love you through sickness and health..
Until death..
Do we apart..
And even then.. You will still have my heart..
You are my peace..
I prayed to God that he would save the best for me..
And he didn't cheat me..
He gave a man who love me..
From the top of my head to the bottom of my feet..
He send a man that worships me..
I promise to kiss you everyday you wake up next to me..
I promise that we never go to sleep angry..
I promise to make love to you..
I promise to protect your mental..
I promise to be there everytime you need me..
I promise to never cheat..
And why would I need to creep..
When I have the person that meant for me..
I promise to love you with my whole body, mind, heart and soul..
I promise it will always be us vs them..
You have calmed my nervous system..
You are my lover, soulmate and bestfriend..
The way that our love transcends..
Your healed the child in me..
Your love me for me..
You take care of me..
You see me truly..
You love me geninuely..
And I can't wait to start of our lives together..
So Yes.. I will Marry you.. Yes.. TO FOREVER..

Vulnerable

For this new chapter of my life..
I'm going against my own advice..
I'm going to be the most vulnerable that I've ever been..
And some of this will sound like a contradiction..
Because this is not the life that I've envisioned..
But these are the consequences of my actions..
The self-satifaction..
The anticipiation..
This generation..
Of lovers.. Of love..
The worse..
I'm truly curse..
It's like I'm destined to be alone..
I look at my dry phone..
I want love.. but am I really looking and searching..
When I'm then one that always end up hurting..
And hoping.. That this time.. Things will be different..
This is not the life that I envisioned..
Am I truly ready..
To go steady..
To date..
Because I always hesitate..
To replace my self-respect..
To accept disrespect..
Am I ready.. For this shit..
Honestly.. Where's the benefit..
What the point.. Why? What is love's purpose.. *Sigh*..
What can love do for me..
Honestly..
If I wanted love.. would it find me..
Even if I'm not ready..
To go steady..
I'm going to rock the boat..
First sign of trouble.. I'm grabbing my coat..
I'm leaving..
I'm grieving..
It in that very moment.. I'm not going to continue to try..
I'm not going to even cry..
Tears are for the weak.. Love keeps tempting me..
And then I feel so empty..
And I'm one of God's strongest soliders..
With everything that I'm carrying on my shoulders..
I can't carry us too..
I can afford to be confused..
And two things can we true..
I don't want or need you..
If you don't align with everything that I do..
And I only knew..
Everything you lose..
When you choose to be true..
When being faithful to those who faithfully disappoint me..
Sad realities..
When I'm the casuality..
In the war of words.. Never actions..
We harp on what we're both lacking..
It the battle of bias..
And preconcieved notions.. Doubt clouds my mind..
And with time..
Our love is not what it's supposed to be..
There is lack of deciency..
No type of common curticousy..
When falling in love.. Creates tension..
This is not what I envisioned..