Leave Me With My Memories

Every Time..
You Say That You've Made Up Your Mind..
That You're Tired..
Tired Of Me..
Tired Of The Imaginary Boundaries..
Tired of The Lines..
Drawn..
Tired Of The Lack Of Interest..
The Questions..
Tired Of My Actions..
My Reactions..
Tired Of My Answers..
You Telling Me That I'm Slowly Killing You.. A Bomb.. Ticking.. Just Like Cancer..
My Love.. Breaks You Down..
Nothing Positive.. Mostly Negative.. Whenever I Come Around..
Funny.. I Thought.. Everything Was Cool..
Maybe I Am The Fool..
Doing Eerything That You Answer.. Just To Make Sure That You're Pleased...
With Me..
Every Opportunity..
That I Ceased..
Was To Make Us Better.. And Now You Want To Leave..
And Even If I Promised..
To Be More Honest..
Than I've Ever Been..
To Continue To Reply.. We Really Just Need To Be Friends..
This Space.. Time To Test The Water.. Well I Hope You Drown..
I Hope That While You're Looking For Someone To Save You.. You Look Around..
To See That There is Nobody To Be Found..
I Hope The Water.. Crushes You..
And The Lust..
For Life..
Brings You Death..
And I'll Never Wish Bad On Anyone But I Wish That Somethind Else..
Takes You.. Takes Over You..
The Thing That Allows You To Question My Intentions..
Every Visit..
It's Always Something Different..
Screaming For Me To Listen..
Yelling For Me To Pay Attention..
I Tune Out.. Black Out.. Spazz..
And The After Math..
Is Tears..
Because No Matter How Much I Open Up.. I'm Not Being Real..
In You're Eyes..
So I Apologize..
Man I Can Win For Losing..
And Can't Lose For Winning.. And If It's You I'm Choosing..
What's More Important..
Not Knowing Your Worth.. Or Losing Mine.. Is It Really Worth It..
The Times When It Felt Like Magic..
We're Happy.. And Then You Start To Wave Your Hands.. And There You Have It..
It Disappears..
And Reappears..
Whenever You Feel Like.. The Coast is Clear..
The Arguments..
The Judgments..
The Way You Used to Look At Me.. You've Lost Your Innocence..
So You Charge Me With Criminal Intention..
Complain About Things..Like You See The Future..
Was Once Stuck In The Past..
Bitter About Things And People In Your Life That Didn't Last..
So When Talk Of The Present Comes Up..
Just Like A Full Cup..
U Spill..
Until It All Becomes Vivid..
We Have To End This..
And When I Can't Get You Out Of My Head..
I Can't Even Force Myself To Get Out Of Bed..
Laying With My Thoughts..
Sleeping With Memories..
Praying That You Don't Wake Me..
Or I Would Be Forces to Deal With Reality..
Interact With Your Personality..
And Personally..
I Would Rather.. Dream..
Wishing You Could Stay That Way Forever..
In My Dreams.. We Are Togther..
You Don't Stress Me..
You Don't Depress Me..
You Complete Me..
In My Dreams.. You Need Me..
You Believe Me..
When I Say I Love You..
You Smile And Say I Love You Too..
My Memories Are All I Have Right Now..
You Used To Be Worth The While..
Worth The Time And The Effort..
And In Any Efforts..
You Can't Say That I'm Not Trying..
And You've Be Lying..
If You're Saying That We Didn't Have It..
Before All The People In Your Ear.. Feeding You That Bullshit..
And Every Time You Eat.. Cleaning The Plate..
Scraping.. Luckily Your Fingers and The Plate..
Instant Mood Change.. When I See Your Face..
No I'm Not Trying To Replace You..
Not Trying To Erase..
The Memories..
But You Just Tendency..
To Push Me To My Limits..
Question Our Time Together.. And Why I even Spend It..
When I Should Save It..
Why Even Have It..
Reaching Out Your Hands To Me.. Thinking Why Should I Even Grab It..
Want Me On My Knees..
Begging.. Graveling.. Pleading..
For Another Chance..
For Another Pass.. One More Advance..
For Advice..
For Reasons To Keep Me In Your Life..
But The Answer is So Simple.. So Easy..
I Need To Let Go..
And If You Really Do Leave Me.. I'll Take My Heart.. My Mind.. My Essence.. My Soul..
And If That's The Case..
Take It.. Take It All..
But I Want To Be Able To Recall..
I Want To Be Able To Go Back.. To The First Day.. I Met You..
Loved You.. Held You.. Thought That This Would Last..
Made The Decision.. To Slow Down.. When I Felt Like My Love Was Moving To Fast..
I Want To Remember You Calling..
You Texting..
When I Wasn't Questioning Or Second Guessing..
Anything..
Whenever My Phone Would Ring..
How I Prayed It Was You..
Looking Back Now.. I'll Be Lucky If I Get A Text Or Too..
So Yes.. Take All You Need To Take Away From Me..
But Please Before You Say That Final Good-bye.. Just Leave Me With My Memories..