3AM...

I Know That I Should Be Sleep..
But The Lover in Me Won't Cease..
So Mentally I Cheat..
I'm Laying Next to Them.. Thinking Of You.. Thoughts Of You And I On The Low.. So My Mind Creeps..
And I Crawl Back To You..
Physically I Can't See Myself With You..
So These Thoughts Cross Boundaries..
These Thoughts Of You.. I Wish Was Momentarily..
I Wish I Could Get Clarity..
12 AM.. And You Are Running Thought My Mind..
I'm Trying To Catch Up To Them.. But I'm So Far Behind..
12:15 I Drift Off.. Well Attempt Too..
But These Thoughts Of You..
Turns 12:15 Into 12:30..
And I Can See You And I Flirting..
You Showing Me..
And I Can't Sleep.. What is The Time..
Damn 12:45..
Still Up..
Thinking About Your Love..
And So I Turn On Some Music To Try To Relax..
More Thoughts Of You.. Sends The Memories All Back..
And I Relapse..
Still Trying To Track..
Whatever Triggered These Situations..
And It All Comes Back.. Times.. Dates.. And Locations..
I Smile..
Because I Can Remember The First Time That I Knew In My Heart That You Were Mine..
Then I Frown..
Remembering The First Time.. I Had To Cope With You Not Being Around..
And I Want To Cry..
But I've Shed So Many Tears Over You.. That No Tear Could Ever Fall From My Eyes..
I Promised Myself That No Tear Will Ever Roll Down My Face..
So I Wait..
1 Rolls Around.. And I Try To Deprogram The Memories..
Trying To Program My Mind To Think Of You As An Enemy..
And Now Songs play That Remind Me Of You.. Damn This Shuffle..
I Could have sworn That It Knows My Whole Life.. And Knows My Love For You..
So It Reminds Me With Every Song.. That Plays..
And As I Lay..
I'm Feeling Some Kind Of Way..
Times Freezes.. And I Just Want This Day..
To Be Over.. 1:30.. So Soon..
And My Thoughts Of You.. Fills The Entire Room..
So I Turn The Music Off..
And Now I'm So Lost..
And If That Wasn't Bad Enough..
I Can Still Feel Your Love..
And I Get The Feeling That You're Thinking Of Me Too..
2 AM..
I Text A Friend..
Nothing Too Serious.. Small Talk At The Most.. We Text..
They're Looking For Something Serious And I'm Looking For Something Along The Lines of Sex..
I'm Not Trying To Get Attached.. I Mean For What..
While They're Looking For Love.. And I'm Looking For Lust..
I Say Come Over.. I Don't Want To Be Alone..
And I Hang Up The Phone..
Looking For Something To Take My Mind Off You..
Knowing That I Can't Call You..
Or Send You A Text.. Just To Remind You..
Of Us..
So I Replace Our Love..
With Temporary Lust..
2:45 Couldn't Have Came Soon Enough..
And I'm Making Out..
Still Trying To Block These Thoughts Out..
Buy Me Some Time..
Until 3 Am Arrives..
And My Thoughts Of You Seem To Cease..
You Text Me.. Hi Baby.. Do You Miss Me..
I Reply Yes..
Laying Next..
To This Temporary Replacement Of You..
You Ask Again.. If I Miss You..
I Reply I Sure Do..
You're The Only Thing That's Been On My Mind..
And I'm Not Lying..
But In Reality.. I Am..
So Many People.. Came And Went.. Trying to Replace You.. And Now I'm Mad..
More or Less.. Upset with Myself.. Because You Were Truly the Best That I Never Had..
And If You Decided to Quit These Games and Come Back To Me Then I Would Separate Myself For The Real and Fake..
But Every time 3am rolls around.. It's Brings Me back to Reality and That Day That You Said You Needed a Break..
That Choosing to Be with Me.. Was Maybe a Mistake..
That's The Day That My World Stopped..
And Because of You.. I Will Always Remember Us.. Damn.. That 3 o'clock..