To Whom It Concerns...

You Was Supposed To Be The One Who Was Different..
The One That I Envisioned..
Was A Gift From God.. And Think Finally My Prayers Were Answered..
Later To Feel More.. And Now I Just Can't Stand It..
Now As I Sit Back.. I Can't Even Imagine..
All Those Positive Thoughts.. Eliminated.. Gone..
Occupied By Negativity.. Just A Cloud Of Darkness.. Everything is So Wrong..
When I Just Wanted The Truth..
Not What or How You Felt.. But More Of Along The Lines Of What You Knew..
Silence..
So Blinded..
And I Was So Open Minded..
Now..
I'm So Closed.. I Wouldn't Be Able To Let You Back In.. Even If I Knew How..
Now I'm Mad Because You Are So Dirty.. And Not In The Sense Of Not Being Clean..
In The Sense Of Being So Foggy, Cloudy, Tainted.. Your Actions Will Never Defy What You Mean..
You Will Never Find Happiness..
You Will Never Get The Chance To See Love At It's Finest..
And When I Should Be Mad.. I'm Not..
And I'm Cool.. When I Should Be Furious.. Steaming.. Boiling Hot..
Indifference..
Yeah It Hurted..
But This Is Not The First Time.. Someone Turned Out To Be.. The Total Opposite..
So Why Even Be Bothered With It..
You Put My Life In Jeopardy..
Like This Was Some Type of Game.. Laying Next To Me..
Spending Time With Me..
Getting To Know Me..
While I Was Never Really Actually Getting to Know The Real You..
And As I Sit Back.. It Ended The Way I Dreamed It Would.. Well They Always Do..
I Would Never Wish Harm On Anyone.. But..
I Wish Karma.. Butt Fucks.. Makes You Those Same Promises You Made Me.. And Then Dream Rape You..
I Hope She Tells You.. Everything You Want To Hear..
Softly Kissing On Your Ear..
And Then Poisons You..
I Hope She's Just As Good As I Am In The Bed..
And When She Goes Down To Put Her Lips Around Your The Head..
The Poison Begins To Seep Through...
And As You It Flows Into Your Blood Stream..
Your Life Flashes Before Your Eyes..
The Pain.. The Hurt.. And All The Lies..
Become Weights.. And They Drag You Down Deeper..
Grasping For Air.. Choking Your Mistakes..
I Hope In Your Last.. Moment of Life.. You See My Face..
And You Die One Of The Most Painful Metaphoric Deaths..
I Hope In Those Last Moments That You Have Left..
You See The Error Of Your Ways..
But Realize That It's Much To Late..
I Know That Everything Happens.. For A Reason..
So I Will Stand Firm On My Beliefs.. And Keep On Believing..
And When Looks Can Be Oh So Deceiving..
And When The Mask Comes Off.. The True Monster Appears..
I Hope That I Can Be Able To Stand Up And Face My Fears..
Be Able To Let Go.. With No Emotional Attachment..
No More Words.. Just Actions..
Just Decisions..
That You Made Without Consulting Me.. So Now We Both Have To Live With Them..
I Hope That You Find Love..
And When You Get Close Enough To Touch It.. You Fall Flat On Your Face.. And Right At That Moment You Think Of...
Me..
And When You Think It's Over.. And There Isn't Much More You Can Take..
Karma Tells You That You Have An Incurable Case of Heartache.. Triggered By Your Heart Being Broken..
I Hope that Tears Stream Down Your Face before Karma's Last Word is Spoken..
I Pray That You Learn To Live With It.. And Not Be So Bothered With It..
And When you Feel Like You've Conquered It..
Depression Sits In..
Slowly Losing Sanity.. Every Time You Close Your Eyes.. And Think..
And With Every Blink..
You're Closer and Closer To The Edge.. Closer To The Brink..
And Then You Realize..
That These Lessons.. Are Just Merely Test..
That You Failed To Study For.. So In Return You Fail Miserably..
And Your Curiosity..
Only Made The Test That Much Harder To Understand..
Harder To Comphrend..
Only To Realize.. That Their Will Be Other Test..
Some Easier Others Harder Than The Rest..
And Then You Begin To Settle.. Content With Your Decision..
Just Feeling Okay With The Life You're Living..
I Hope This Letter Reaches You..
And Therefore Teaches You..
And If You Don't Get Anything From This Letter..
To Whom It May Concern.. Please Know That I Can Do Better..