The Consequences of My Life

The Consequences of My Life is Simple... Pain And the Repeated sound of my Heart Breaking...

Now I Am Definitely Not the type to Care About Things like that well My Heart Being Broken but its the Sense of feeling it Repeatedly.... 

My First Consequence of Life is Letting the Past Interfere with my present And future... Thinking that people who were Overlooked in the Past might better my Future or Change My Present. The First was someone who I had a high school crush on, not realizing that high school was over... Consequence- That Ended Up Just As Easily As It Started.. My Second was an Ex. That I deemed as "The Love of My Life"... How Crazy is that... Someone that I put both time, years And effort into and to have it end up the same way it ended in previous attempts.... Consequence- He Cheated Himself as I Cheated Myself But Thank God, This Time it wasnt Him that I Cheated or any one else.. Well Sure we are still friends if thats what u want to call it... I still have love for him.. But I Was thinking that I Needed Someone to Keep me company or Grace their Presence in my Life.. Difference- I Was Me Before I Met Anyone And will Be the Same, Slightly Similar, Mostly Changed or Altered After..... Its Still Me.. 

My Second Consequence of Life is Caring too Much or Giving Advice, or Even Being There for Anyone... Thinking that this was My form of Frienship.. This Life Lesson cost me deeply... The First was Getting in between two friends And Money... The Consequence- I Lost almost every friend in this Battle.. This was a Huge Body Count.. The Second was Caring And getting in between My So Called friend And My So Called Brother.. The Consequence- I Lost The Friend And The Brother that I once had... I could ultimately Say that we dont talk like that because we dont have shit to say to Each Other... And The Last was Talking to a Friend About Another Friend but it was not anything Bad... Consequence- It ended our Friendship... If I didnt care or didnt give advice or just kept to myself none of this would happen... Whose to Blame Me or My Friendship?

My Third And Final Consequence of Life is Making the Same Mistakes Over And Over Again.. Making myself weaker by committing the Same Damn Mistakes Over at Various Time Periods... My First And Deadliest is O.P.P.... Consequence- Months And Months of Therapy.. lol.. The Real One.. And UPS Packages of Feelings that I had to Ship to Africa "The Cradle of Life".. The Kids in Africa needed that Love Shit Not I.. Second was the Mistake of thinking that Every Guy is the Not And will Never Be the Same.. Consequence- I began to think that dumb shit And fell for NIGGAS that I would have never fell for even if I was walking with crutches... Third was making the Mistake And thinking that "Sex" was everything so instead of looking for qualities that I liked I was looking for well "Sex..." Consequences- Losses, L's, Not Alot but enough to last me to the Next 10 Lifetimes... "Sex" is not everything... Money is... Too My Knowledge... And If You Feel like "Sex" is one of the Major influences And Factors that can set your life back at Ease.. Then I Feel Sorry For You.. Because U are missing out on The Joys of Life And True Happiness... My Fourth Mistake was thinking that I needed to Fight.. lol.. this is not a Mistake well maybe the reasons why I fought or got into it.. Consequences- A Bad Rep when I'm Sincerely Nice.. lol.. My Fifth Mistake was thinking that I Needed Hella Friends And that those friends had my Back.. Consequences- (Read the Previous Paragraphs) And alot of people who I thought where my friends but I only seen or heard from them when they needed something... i.e. school or their pleasure related... So when U take the things that they wanted or the people that u called a Mutual Friend out of the Equation.. U Really Don't have a Solid Foundation because Most of it was Built on Lies... And We all know Lies Can't Last Forever... So people who Claim they are my Friend or just Friends Period might Want to think About That... My Sixth and Final Mistake was Repeatedly Making these Simple ass Mistakes.. Its like I'm getting caught in the Same Traps And Not Learning from each glitch or minor set back.. Consequences- This Note And the Lost of Things And People that Seemed to have a Sufficient Valuable to Me or in My Life.. or At least I thought most of it was.. But maybe that was the Mistake that I kept Making.... 

Sidenote: I Wrote this Note So People will Read this And try not to make the same Mistakes that I'm Making.. U Grow Stronger from Things that dont kill u... And Learning from your mistakes is apart of life.. So with that.. Ask yourself... How's My Life? And Am I Truely Happy?