My Random Thoughts

With all the Stuff that's Been Happening in MY LIFE... I just wanted to talk about a Couple of Things... For Instance... The Most Thought Provoking Thing... My Grandmother Said to Me was that You Will Learn alot about yourself when You are Dealing with Other People.. I didn't Understand what She Meant until Friendships came into Play... 

What I don't understand is why Most Female Never Seem to Stay Friends that Long? Or how things so Trivial and Meaningless can Tear up a Friendship... I don't UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE CAN CHANGE... I understand that People Can Change For the Good MOST OF THE TIME... But what I don't Understand is how.. or Why People Change and NOT in a Positive Way... 

I don't Understand how People can Claim that Friendships or Sisters of Whatever the Fuck you want to call it.. Can End just as quickly as it Started without any Disregard.... 

I don't Understand... What Makes People Change??? Why Do People Change??? What Purpose Does Changing Serve??? If In the End, Your Gonna Be Alone as Fuck... And All the People that You Once Had By Your Side You Pushed Away... Or Why Are People So Quick to Judge but Not Quick to Enlighten... And Why Don't People Listen?? Why is it So Easy to Give Someone Else Advice but So Hard to Steer Yourself out of Your Situation??? Why Can't People Just Forgive and Forget?? Well Not Forget but Forgive?? The More You Keep that Shit Bottled Up... The Harder it Is for You to Let it Go and DEAL with The Situation?? Why are People So Quick to Say they are Your Friend but the First ONE to Stab You in the Back?? Do I really Have to Lose ALL Of My Friends to Understand that.. I Needed to Be True to Me.. Why don't They Make Friendships like they Used too?? Do I Really Have to Lose a Friend to Gain a REAL Friend??? Shit is Getting Old... Who Can You Trust in this World?? And Now a Days... You Can't Put Shit Past Anyone... 

I'm Closing MY HEART.. I'm Sick of Letting People in.. Only to Get it Broken by People who I thought was Real and True... Love.. Man Not Even Love... Fucking Friendships... 

And I've Been Really Thinking About Love.. And What Love Really Means... Yeah we all know that Love is Self- Explanatory... Meaning.. It's Your Own Fucking Definition.. But I don't Understand Why People Throw the Word Love Around Now a Days... Like People are Supposed to Drop to their Knees.. On Some I Love You Type BULL and Emphasize on SHIT... 

And Why is Everyone So Bent on Settling Down.. Or Thinking that Finding a Meaningful Relationship will Either Make You Happy or Give Your Life Some Damn Meaning... Finding Someone Takes Fucking Time... And You have to Go Through alot of People to Find that Special One.. I'm So Fucking Sick of People... Getting into a Relationship just because it was There.. Get into a Relationship because you Fucking want to be in One and Care... And Why are Most of the People who are in Relationships... Aren't Shit... Not Everyone... But Some... Why Even Get into a Fucking Relationship?? People Make it So Hard to Find Someone Because Yall Shit on People.. Doing them Fucking Wrong.. And Expect Great and Positive Results from that Shit.. Man GROW UP!!! No GROW THE' FUCK UP!!! You Make it So Hard for the Next Individual Because You didn't Know how to (insert shit that People do to Make Relationships work) and You are (insert shit that People do to Fuck up Relationships) and how Other People Have to Work EXTRA HARD to Prove that They Are Worth It... Fucking People Never Cease to Amaze Me.. 

AND STOP FUCKING SETTLING... I Fucking Mean it.. If you Know You Can Do Better then Do Better.. I understand if You're Not Looking for a Relationship... BE That As it May.. Then KEEP IT PUSHING... But Why is it When You are on Your Last Limb of Saying Fuck Relationships... do You Find Someone that is Actually Worth Your Time??? Why is that?? Do I Have to Fucking take ALL THESE FUCKING L's Just to Find the Winner.. I Guess it's Worth it in the End.. :-) LOL.. Take it However YOU Want to Take It.. 

And Why Do People Gossip so Fucking Much... Why Can't People Just Tell Some and Fucking Keep Some.. Got Damn It.. I don't Want to Hear About Your Business.. But I'm Pretty Sure You Hearing About Mine.. And You Ask Me Why???? It's Simple... Because People Talk Entirely Too Much... NO SIMPLE BITCHES TALK ENTIRELY TOOO MUCH... SHUT YOUR FACE!!! Why Would Any Nigga or Man what to Be with you.. When the Next Hour not Even Day.. The WHOLE Campus is Hearing About that Shit... SHUT THE' FUCK UP!!!! 

Man.. Shit is Getting Out of Hand.. I'm Serious.. You Don't know Who Real Anymore... I'm Going to Stop Trying to Worry about Situations that Don't Involve Me.. If You Put Yourself in a Situation... And whatever Happens to You Happens... I think that God's Will has Been Done and More or Less Forfilled... Fuck AM I Supposed to Do.. 

Oh and Why Do Baby Daddy's Got Out of Pocket??? I Know You Are Looking at Me Like.. Like C'mon Nina... What are YOU talking About?? And I Reply... Stay YO BITCH ASS IN THE BACK FUCKING POCKET... You Know what Not Even Just Baby Daddy's... Baby Mommas Jump out Too.. Let's Just Say People.. So I can Include the OTHER ONE... Lol.. Just a Random Thought.. 

But It's Just Tough.. You Think People are Going to be the Same and Everything is Going to Fucking Peachy with a Side of Peaches... But Even Peaches Get CANNED!!! 

Oh and Sorry for the Language... I Just Feel Strongly About these Things.. And its Pissing Me the Fuck Off.. My Bad... It's Really Getting to Me.. :-)