Dear Love..

Dear Love,

I've Know.. That I've Off Been A little Misguided.. When It Comes to You..
I Was Told That.. You.. Was Blind..
But When.. I'm Really Focusing.. Your Easy To Find..
Hard to Keep.. Difficult.. To Maintain..
So I'm Trying to Sustain..
Trying.. To Get Over You..
See You..
Destroyed.. My Life.. My Happiness.. My Peace..
And Yes.. I've Met Your Twin.. Hate..
I Walked On The Thin Line.. And It's To Her.. I Can Relate..
And They Totally Oppose.. But They Say.. Opposites.. Attract..
And It's Been So Hard to Relax..
I Want to Relate.. and Release..
I Want Peace..
But Love.. You Make It So Hard.. To Deal..
And I Often.. Ask Myself.. Are You Real..
And Why Do I Fall..
Why Do I Try..
Why Do I Lie..
Like You Don't Live.. With Me..
We See Each Other Everyday..
But I Never Had the Chance.. to Say..
That You And I.. Are Officially.. Going Separate Ways..
Sure.. There Will be Days..
When.. I Miss You..
But Look What You've Done to Me..
Heartache.. Misery.. Loneliness.. Tears..
Took.. What I Never Wanted to Do.. Relationships.. And Me.. You Used My Fears.
Don't Forget The Times.. I Cried.. Asking You.. To Remove.. Yourself.. From My Presence..
You Replaced My Confidence.. With Doubt.. You Took My Very Essence..
And I Begged... For You to No Longer Exist.. Through Me..
But You Continue.. To Stay.. And Mock.. Me..
To My Face..
All I Wanted Was Some Space..
To Figure Out Me..
And You Still Couldn't See.. Wouldn't Dare Give It To Me..
Or Wanted to Believe.. That I Was Done..
You Used.. Him.. And Her.. Anyone..
To Get to Me.. Make Me.. Break..
Crack.. And Shatter.. I was So Clumsy.. Around You..
Now I Watch My Steps.. Over Think My Decisions.. Analyze My Actions..
I Bet That Gave You Pure Satisfaction..
To Know That I Rethought You..
And You Had Me.. To a Point.. Where.. Your Name.. Was Banned..
Restricted..
And If Anyone.. Every Brought Your Name Up.. I Failed to Listen..
Turned Off.. At The Sound of The L Word..
You Were a Blur..
Something.. I Could Look at Far Away.. and Admire..
But If You Ever Came Close.. I Never Desired...
To Be Near You..
I Tuned It All.. Out.. So It Was Hard.. To Hear You..
But I Wanted.. To Tell You..
I'm Still Not Ready.. To Speak... To Reconcile..
My Heart.. Thinks That She's Ready.. But My Mind.. Knows The Time Isn't Now..
And I Was Wondering If Somehow..
You Can Get The Two.. To Be In Sync..
So When The Time is Ready.. And We Finally Get The Chance to Speak..
I Will Know.. That's It You..
So Love.. I Know.. That I've Been Writing You.. For Some Time..
But When.. You Figure Out.. A Way.. To Make Up My Heart and Mind..
You Will Come Back.. Until Then..

Your Friend..
A Loveless Soul.......