The Inevitable..

... I Told Myself That This Time I'll Be More Careful..
More Respectful..
Tired of The Disrespectful..
Not Saying.. What You Meant..
The Treatment..
All Alone in The Dark.. With No Enlightenment..
Negative Thoughts Of You Knocking.. Uninviting..
And When I Try To Throw Them Out.. They Always Come Back to Me..
When Your Actions Have No Decency..
Going Against My Better Judgment.. You Say There's No Pleasing Me..
And Then It's All These Blatant Acts... Deliberately
And You Say It's Never What It Appears to Be..
And I Try to Sympathize..
Failed to Realize..
The Big Picture..
Why Am I With Ya..
Me Saying I Hate You.. Would Be Lies..
And Through It All.. To My Surprise..
I Stay..
I Say..
I Make a Way..
What If..
This..
Will You Miss..
Me Enough.. To Try..
To Dress Up The Ugly Truth.. With Beautiful Lies..
When I Just Want The Real..
How Do You Feel..
Do You Care..
Will You Be There..
When All Else Fails..
When My Train of Thoughts Derails..
I Want To Know What Love Is..
I Want The Gift..
If Not From You..
Then Who..
I Want The Truth..
Don't Feed Me.. That.. Without Trust..
It's No Us..
Because You Have A Place in My Heart.. It's Carved..
And I'll Starve..
Before I Let You Spoon Feed Me That Bullsh*t..
Save It..
Sustain It..
Criticism Delicately Combined With Compliments..
And If It Isn't Evident..
How I Feel.. My Feelings.. My Heart.. How I Carry It..
On My Sleeve..
And What I Need..
Right Now..
Is For You To Talk.. Tell Me How...
How In The Hell..
Am I Supposed to Feel..
Supposed to Tell..
Confess.. My Confessions..
You're Suggesting..
I Should Be Willing to Embrace..
Because It Was Bound.. To Come To This Point.. This Place..
Are You Asking Me.. Can I Handle It..
And In Return I Ask.. Can You Be A Woman About This..
Speak..
Repeat..
Imply..
Rely..
Demonstrate...
Please Participate..
In This Discussion...
Understand The Repercussions..
Of Hurting Me..
I Want You To Know Me..
So When You Approach Me..
Feeling Like We're In This Position..
This Predicament..
And You Can't Find The Words.. The Right Song.. To Say You Miss This..
Need This..
You Believe That This..
Is Worth Fighting For..
And Further More..
STOP.. Remember..
That Night In September..
Which Led To The Fight In November..
Our Break-Up December..
When I Seen The Problem.. And Lord Knows I Tried..
To Stop The Inevitable... For Happening.. But I Had To Realize..
I Was Taking a Risk.. Just Loving You.. Because of You.. Love For Me.. Will Always Be Jeopardized...
And At This Point.. Stop Apologizing.. Because It's Too Late to Apologize..