Unfaithful..

... Sighs.. As I Try to Rehearse..
At a Lost For Words.. Starting Off By Saying.. I'm Truly... Relationship Cursed...
Then Trying to Form The Sentences... Get Together.. The Truth.. Because Lies Seems to Fall Apart...
Baby.. I'm Sorry.. Because.. I Love You With All My Heart...
But..
As I Stare in The Mirror..
Cursing Myself..
For What I Did..
Who I Did..
How Many Times... .
All The Lies...
Baby I Cheated..
And As I Can Imagine.. You Falling.. to The Floor..
I Wait For You to Be Seated..
I See The Hurt in Your Eyes...
The Tears Not For The Cheating... Or The Lies..
For The Perception.. That I Played...
And As We Laid..
I Wanted to Tell You..
Couldn't Find The Words...
Couldn't Face You..
Baby I Wasn't Trying to Replace You...
You are So Special to Me..
I Will Never Find Another..
You Are My Baby.. My Love.. My Friend... My Lover...
And I Swear..
That It Was a Once in a Lifetime Thing.. Lies..
And I was thinking about You The Whole Time.. Lies..
I Imagine That They Just Roll Of My Tongue.. Telling You Anything to Get You To Stay...
To Say..
Shit Happens..
No Reply...
Just Silence.. More With The Lies...
So That I Won't Have to Hear You Say Good Bye Forever...
I Feel So Hurt.. It Wasn't My Intention to Hurt You.. Ever...
I Feel Like I Lost Your Trust..
Losing Us..
You Can't Even Look at Me..
The Thought of Me... With Someone Else..
Leaves an Empty Feeling.. No Emotions.. The Words.. Playing In Your Head Over and Over.. I've Been Cheating..
The Thought of Losing You.. Makes My Heart.. Stop Beating..
And I Need You To Tell Me.. Your Not Leaving...
Please Baby...
You Are Meant For Me.. And I For You..
What Do You Mean.. If I Was In Your Position.. What Would I Do..
I Would Stay and Try to Work It Out.. Lies..
I Would Leave and Never Look Back..
As If.. My Opinion.. Matters at The Moment..
I Just Want to Rewind.. Go Back in Time.. And Pause It to When We Were Truly Happy.. And Hold It..
But I Can't.. Give Up.. Neither Can We...
What's Done is Done..
And It Hurts Me.. As I Try to Focus... Back to Reality.. As I Sit There and Try to Listen..
To Why.. You Feel Like Our Relationship is Different..
And If I Wasn't Tripping..
You Wouldn't Have to Go Out.. To The Bar.. Taking Shots... Just Sipping..
And You Met This Girl..
And You Gave Her Our World..
Our Time.. Your Mind.. Your Heart.. Our Lust.. Our Love.. Us..
You Question If I Hate You..
If I Want to Get Even Too..
Maybe You Do Deserve It..
Deserve to Be Lied Too..
Deserve to Feel Like I Feel..
Knowing That Your The Only One Being Real..
Giving Your All..
And When You Love Someone.. It's So Easy to Fall..
Baby.. Baby.. Baby..
I Black Out.. Tuned Out.. Focusing On Someone I Used to Knew..
No More Present Tense.. Strickly Past..
So why try to Make it Last...
Love Can Only Go So Far..
Apologizing... Doesn't Help.. It Makes It Worst..
I Question.. Relationships.. I Question.. Love.. Life.. and Happines...
I No Longer.. Feel Safe in My Own Home.. My Place..
Sure I Can Ask For Space.. But is That What I Seriously Want... Really...
No.. Idk What I Want.. And It Might Sound Silly.. But I want Me..
I would never Cheat on Me..
And If I Met Me..
I Would Treat Me Right..
I Love Me..
Even If You Never.. See..
I Can't Be The Only One Faithful..
So Until I Find Someone.. Who Will Cherish My Values..
I Just Have Me..