The Single Life..

... I Swear I Always Get My Hopes Up.. When People and My Dreams Start to Coincide...
More Like Love Suicide..
I Always Set Myself Up For Failure.. Killing Myself Slowly... When It Comes To Love..
I Start to Fall For The Conversations... The Kisses... The Hugs...
The Words.. The Promises..
The Originality...
The Chemistry Between Us.. The Compatiblity...
All The While Thinking... I Too Am Destined For Great Romance..
Forcing Myself.. To Take a Leap of Faith.. To Give You A Chance..
I Try to Convince Myself That Everyone is Different...
And When My Friend Have Their Opinions...
I Try Not to Listen..
Remain Unbias..
So Caught Up On What We Could Be.. I Get So Excited..
I Always Jump Head First.. Never Just Sticking My Feet in Water.. To Test The Waves..
Maybe.. It's Because.. I Have Those Days... When I Get Lonely..
Regret The Single Life... Settle Down...
So I Go Out.. Meet and Greet... Mix and Mingle.. Look Around...
Search.. Nothing Specific...
Someone Classy.. Beautiful... Independent...
I Find a Few...
And When I Get Tired of The Old.. I Look For The New..
Never Really Giving One Person My Mind...
Never Really Taking The Extra Time..
To Get to Know Them...
Because In My Heart.. I Know They Are All The Same...
Game Recognizes Game...
And When I Feel Like They Are Really Feeling Me.. Wanting to Get to Know Me.. The Real Me.. My Real Name..
I Step Back... More Like Draw Back..
When I Feel Like.. They Are At Their Weakest.. I Attack...
I Was Taught To Never Let Them See You Sweat..
When They Feel Like They Have You... Switch It Up.. Leave Them Wanting More.. And It's On To The Next...
Treating Them Like They Will Never Matter... In Such a Manner... That Will Have Them Thinking You're a Challenge...
I Keep As Many As I Can Manage..
No One Get's More Attention.. Everyone's Equal.. Everything's Balanced...
Baby.. Sweetie... Bae.. Hunny... Boo...
You Think I'm Just a Sweet Heart.. When in Reality.. I Can't Remember Who You Are... Let Alone You...
And I Would Be Telling a Lie..
If I Said.. That I Would Try...
Too...
Baby You...
*Laughs*
Make To Easy...
So Wrapped Up On.. Trying to Please Me...
You Fail To See Your Potential...
Trying to Be Apart of Me.. When You Should Be An Individual...
You're The One Taking The Risk...
And I'm The One Who Benefits...
My Friends Say.. Treat People How You Wanted to Be Treated..
Because When That One Comes.. That Chance Comes Along... It Will Never Be There When You Need It..
*Sighs*
I Let It Sink In...
I Decide to Change... Where Do I Begin...
I Change For a Better Me..
And I Finally Meet Someone Who Could Potentially Be Special To Me...
Nothing Specific..
She Has The Qualities.. That People Who Are In Love.. When They Talk About Their Partner... She Has All The Qualities... Well Stuff They Mention...
She is So Different...
She Loves Commitment...
She Takes The Time to Listen...
She Pays Attention...
She's The Complete Everything.. Nothing's Missing...
But Still Something Inside Tells Me... Maybe It's My Intitution...
Telling Me.. That She Maybe Not What She Appears..
To Be..
But Mentally...
It's Love... And I'm In It...
And She is So Innocent...
She Innovates Me...
Motivates Me...
She Completes Me...
Couldn't Be More Happy..
And Right When I Got Comfortable.. She Flipped On Me..
I Mean I Can Deal with The Jealousy..
But I Can't Get Past or Set Aside..
The Constant Lies..
You Name It..
Blamed For It..
According to Her.. I'm Cheating..
I'm Sneaking...
I'm Creeping...
I'm The Bad Guy..
And Now.. The Tears.. On Cue...Like Water Works... She Cries...
She Says Good-Bye..
I Beg Her to Stay.. Give Me Another Chance.. We Can Work It Out..
I'll Silence Every Doubt..
She Remains...
And We're Happy.. Things Stay The Same..
Until She Starts to Question My Loyalty.. My Honesty..
She Screams.. Don't Just Sit There and Lie to Me..
Tell Me The Truth..
Who is She To You...
Getting Blamed For The Old Me...
When I've Changed Physically..
Because You Heard How I Was in The Past Life.. But Baby The Old Me Died a Long Time Ago..
But She Doesn't Believe Me.. To Caught Up.. The He Said She Said.. And What She Thinks She Knows..
So Now.. She's On The Phone.. Late Nights...
Convinced That I'm Not Treating Her Right...
We Become So Distant..
I Tune Her Out.. And She Never Listens..
And All It Takes is That One Time Visit..
To a Friend.. From a Friend..
Then Starts With.. We Began.. So Happy.. And Now We're Unhappy and Finished... We Both Know We Have to End It..
But Neither One of Us Wants to Let Go..
And We Know...
It Took So Long to Get Here... And Even If We Visit... If We Found..
We Will Never Find Our Way Back.. Even If We Retraced Our Steps To Our Love.. It's Always At It's Best The First Time Around...
And It All Leads Up To This Point.. We Break Apart..
And I Tell You That.. No Matter What Happens.. You Will Always Have a Special Place in My Heart...
When That is Pure B.S...
Because At This Moment.. I Could Care Less...
Cursing You And Karma.. Out Loud.. Backwards Ass People...
I Get Treated Like Shish.. When I Gave You Everything.. Catered To You.. That's How I Treated You..
Throwing Things... An Emotional Reck...
Damn You Karma.. You Waited Til I Found This One... To Put Me in Check..
You Gets No Respect..
Karma Ain't Nothing But The Devil..
And When I Felt Like I Finished The Stage... You Restarted It.. With More Difficult Levels..
Well Never Again..
Will I Ever Recommend..
Will I Ever Get My Heart Broken Again..
I Shut Down.. Board Up.. Protected My Heart... Guarded..
F*ck Relationships.. They Never End The Way You Want Them Too.. So Why Start It...
I Want Friends..
Benefits..
Nothing Too Serious.. Or I'll End It..
Bitter Much...
And Trust...
Getting Hurt.. NEVER...
And If I Ever...
Fall in Love... It Won't Be For a Long Time...
Yeah.. Sure.. Relationships Do Cross My Mind..
I Think Back.. And I Will Pick Being Single Everytime..
The Dating Scence..
The Person Of My Dreams...
All Fabricated.. In My Head..
Let It Be Said..
I Hate Dating..
I Hate Taking..
Steps.. Making Moves...
Trying to Prove..
When It Only Ends in Loneliness..
I Can't Deal with The Foolishness...
Of People..
But Nevertheless..
I Date..
I Try To Replace...
Love with Lust..
Doubts with Trust...
And When I Feel Like I Want to Go Back to The Old Ways..
I Remember The Days..
And The Empty Feeling I Got.. Kept..
The Lies That I Met..
Halfway... With People's Truth..
And.. To Make a Long Story Short.. What I'm Trying to Say to You...
Is That I Just Want Friends..
Yup.. You Guessed It.. I'm Single Again...
*Sighs*