Still In Love With My Ex..

... I Know It Feels Like I'm Ungrateful..
And I Know This May.. Make You Feel Some Kind Of Way.. We've Said Alot Things.. Some Mean.. Other's Hateful..
And It's Not Like I'm Trying to Replace You..
I'm Blessed.. I Thank God For Me Being with You.. It's a Blessing That I Met You..
But..
I Don't Know How To Say This.. Or What..
To Say..
Baby I Love You in Every Way..
And You Are So Good To Me..
You're My Security..
And I Know That This May Come At The Wrong Time..
But I Have To Say What's On My Mind..
Baby.. I Have To Confess..
I'm Still In Love With My Ex..
Before You Say Anything..
Before You Ask Me.. What I Mean..
Let Me Speak..
Baby It's Not You.. It's All Me..
I Wasn't Ready.. This Wasn't My Plan..
I Thought That We Would Only Be Friends..
But Feelings Began to Grow..
And When The Feelings Become Mutual..
We Both Agreed That We Should Be Together..
And When We Made Those Promises to Each Other..
I Never Had Intentions to Stand By Any One of Them.. I Lied..
And When It Felt Like I Was So Happy With You.. I Cried..
Not From Happiness.. But Because I Knew No Matter How Much I Tried..
We Would Never Last..
Honestly.. I'm Too Stuck in My Past..
And As Time Flied.. It Moved So Fast..
My Feelings For That Matter.. My Heart.. Moved So Slowed..
And Baby I Know..
You Treated Me Like a Queen..
This Probably is The Best Relationship.. Maybe Your Love is What I Need..
But I Want..
You Can't Give Me..
Can You Forgive Me..
For Stringing You Along..
And I Know I'm So Wrong..
And I Know You Will Probably Hate Me..
And No Matter How Much Love You Show.. It Will Never Make Me..
Love You The Same Way as I Love My Ex..
As You Try to Change The Subject..
It Will Always Start and End..
With Us Being Friends..
You Can't Help Who You Love..
So When We Kiss.. And We Hug..
My Mind is Else Where..
My Body is With You.. But My Heart Doesn't Care..
Will Never Share..
Or Will Choose..
You..
What's The Use..
When You Say You're in Love.. And Look at Me..
For a Reply..
If You Look in Eyes..
You Will See..
That I'm Not Ready..
Never Was..
Never Will Be..
Please Believe..
I'm Not What You Need..
Because I Will Never Love You Whole-Heartedly..
And I'll Understand If You.. Say Good-Bye to Me..
In All Honesty..
I Think That is What We Should Do Separate..
Because I Tried to Replace..
Tried to Erase..
What We Had..
Try to Understand..
This Will Never Work Out..
And When I Love You.. Comes Out of My Mouth..
It's Never Spoken From My Heart..
And It's Tearing Me Apart..
I Know It's Alot That I Put You Through..
But Why Should You Suffer Because I'm Confused..
And I'm So Sorry..
I Wasted Your Time.. When You Could Actually Be With Somebody..
That Will Never Put You in This Love Triangle..
Be With Someone.. Who's More Than Willing and Able..
To Do What I Can't..
But I Can't Just Turn My Back..
On The Love That I Left Behind..
Because Real Love is So Hard to Find..
So I Just Can't Let Go..
Of What I Once Had.. And The Love That I Know..
Please Forgive Me..
And If You Never Speak to Me..
I Wouldn't Blame You..
You're Not Where My Heart is And I Would Never Change You..
You're Perfect.. Just The Way You Are..
But Our Love Can Only Take Us.. So Far..
I Never Wanted to Cheat..
Or Go Behind Your Back and Creep..
But Our Love is Not Meant to Be..
And My Ex is Meant For Me..
I Take It That You'll Never Understand..
When I'm Holding Your Hand.. And I'm Smiling in Your Face..
In My The Back of Mind.. I'm Already Convinced That You Can't Replace..
Or Separate..
This is Not Up For Debate..
And It's With My Ex Do I Want to Make It Work..
Yes I Know My Worth..
I Know What I Deserve..
I Hear You.. Yes I Heard..
But They Are Just Words..
I Can't Listen..
Refuse To Pay Attention..
When It's The Ex.. That I'm Missing..
I Can't Describe It.. It's Just Different..
So When Love is Mentioned..
I Think of My Ex.. No This is Not a Competition..
I Just Have So Many Reasons..
Why Our Love Has Meaning..
It Appeals To Me..
And I'm Truly Sorry..
That I Moved On To The Next..
Because I'm Still in Love with My Ex..