Deeper Than Me..

The Constant Circle that I Seem to Double Time Too..
Feels Like I'm Speed Walking.. To a Destination.. Unknown.. Too Who?
Is this the Life that I Lead...
Honestly.. What Do I Need...
What Do I Want.. For Him... or Her.. Or Even Me..
Not Understanding My Purpose.. What Do I Have to Be..
You See I Tend to Fall for People that I Know would Be a Challenge..
And When I'm Done with My Conquest.. I'm Done with You.. Never Wondering how You Manage..
To Love Me.. To Care... To Stay By My Side.. If and When I've Had My Way...
When I Never.. Really Told You that I Wanted You..Or Needed.. You.. That You Completed Me.. How Do You Stay.. Why Do You Stay...
Just to Become another Knot on My Belt..
Another Trophy on My Shelf..
You See I'm Not Like Others.. Hardly.. And then I wonder Why Karma Knows My Full Name..
Funny.. Because I Tend to Fall for Others who Are Like Me.. One in the Same..
And The Ones... that I Never Should Fall For... I Do.. Somehow I Tend to Remain...
And They Leave Me.. Just as Quickly as They Came..
Nothings Changed...
You See I Fell for Mr. Right... In My Eyes.. He was The Only.. The One.. For Me..
So Sure.. That He Fitted Me.. Completed Me.. Made Me Whole.. It was Hard to See..
That He was Just Something that was Meant to be in My Life.. For Me to Learn..
Sure I would Lose the Battle.. But The War.. Would Be Stripes Earned..
So I Vowed.. Never to Take that Road Again..
Even if It Meant.. Being Friends..
Never to Go back..
But Like Opposites.. We Attract..
Once Again.. When I told Myself.. Never to Open Up that Part of My Life... My Heart..
Wondering Days.. or Months Later.. Unfinished Business is Just That.. My Intentions.. Cruel Intentions.. Why Do I Go Looking for Love? Why Do I Start?
So I Stopped Looking for.. Mr. Right..
I Longed for the Guy who Could.. Satisfy My Sexual Appetite...
Later to Realize that.. No One.. Could Fill that Void.. No Single Person Could Hold that Spot.. Play that Position...
Because As Soon as I Felt Like.. I Was Complete... The Other Part of Me.. Would Still Be Looking.. Searching.. Because I Felt Like I was Still Missing..
Out on Love.. or Lust.. Two Completely Different Emotions.. That were Meant to be Separated.. But I Often Confused Them.. Entirely...
Whole-Heartedly..
Giving My All.. When I Only Receive Whatever Piece of Yourself You.. Gave to Me..
Sitting Here Thinking.. That This Might Just Be Deeper than Me..
Deeper that Trust..
Lasting Longer than Lust..
When I'm Trying to Find a Word that Describe Me... When None Comes to Mind..
And Quite Frankly.. Another Me.. Would Be Hard to Find..
No One Could Duplicate the Feelings that I Make You Feel..
Or Give Off The Sense of Security and Honesty.. I'm Always Keeping it Real..
When IT'S ALL LIES..
No One's Real all the Time.. And Most of The Time.. I'm Just Telling You What You Want to Hear..
And By the Time You Realize that.. I was Never Really into You Like That.. I'm Gone My Dear..
I'm Trying to Tell You that.. It's Deeper that Me.. It's Deeper that Us.. And It's Deeper than You..
I May Never Want to Settle Down.. Let Alone.. Be with Just One of You.. Now that I Recall It.. Being a Tease.. Would Be Nothing Short of What I'm trying to Accomplish.. And I Sure Had You Hooked..
Sad.. I Can Read You.. All It Takes is One Look...
Just to Know that You Want What I want.. Sometimes More.. Often Less..
Honestly Can I Confess...
I Don't Know what I Need.. I Don't Want to Be Yours.. I Don't Want the Commitment.. Don't want the ideal that I'm all yours.. and Your Mine..
Sounds Like Promises in the Dark.. Because Once the Lights are Back on.. And Reality Hits.. Its Back to Lines..
The Game that I Spit..
I Sometimes.. Sit Back.. Wondering... Like is He Really Buying This..
Laughing Because.. You Believe..
And I Reach out My Hands to You.. And You Receive Me..
Yeah.. Often I Feel Guilty.. Because You Think that You Could Have this Place in My Heart..
When I really Don't Have One.. And If You were Smart..
You'll Realize that I don't Think like a Girl.. My Mind Frame Matches Yours.. And I Just Might Be Better at Being what You are with My Eyes Closed.. Too Easy..
And when You Take the Time to Understand That.. Why You Could Never Be My Man.. and Why I Could Never Be Your Girl.. You could Never Fully Please Me..
It's Deeper than the Surface with Me.. I Lost Myself A Long Time Ago..
And If You Knew what I Had in Store for Us..Which is Absolutely Nothing... You Would Let Me Go..
Because Nine times out of Ten.. I Already Moved On.. My Attention Span... is Short When it Comes to Love.. Or Any Kind of Commitment..
Deep... I Know.. I just Hope You Realize it Before it's Too Late.. Take the Time to Listen..