Your Hiding..

Listen Baby.. I Know That You've Been Hurt in The Past...
And You Wonder Why with You.. Love Never Seems to Lasts..
And You Tend to Let That Interfere with Your Present..
And I Know That You're Not Guilty.. But You Know That You're Innocent..
I Know That You've Been Hurt..
And Everytime Someone Comes into Your Life.. They Make U Feel Special.. Like You Mean Something.. And When They Leave.. Your Left Questioning Your Worth..
You Feel Like When You Open Your Mouth.. Words Come Out.. Things Get Said..
Feelings Get Hurt.. So You Believe That Things are Better Left Unsaid..
You Feel Like You Could Never Make a Difference.. And at Times You Wish Things Were Different..
You Think That Maybe If You Listened..
To The Word Spoken By Your Exs..
You Could Be Able To Express Yourself.. Give More Of Yourself.. More That What's Expected..
Less Feeling Sorry For Yourself.. Looking in The Mirror.. Feeling Like Neither One of You is Respected...
So You Panic..
Run Away From The Real.. Because Physically You Can.. But Mentally.. You Can't Handle It..
Mind Racing..
Contemplating..
People.. Beliefs... Ideas..
Your Biggest Fears..
Scared to Move Forward..
Making Progress..
But Process is What You Lack..
Sure.. You're Walking But You're Always Looking Back..
So Convinced That You Will Miss Out on Something in The Past.. That You Fail To See Your Future.. Fail To Connect To Your Present..
And If It Wasn't Evident..
That You Really Don't Know What You Want.. Confused..
Unfocused..
Hopeless..
But Yet So Hopeful..
You Don't Want to Kiss.. But You Want to Hug..
Don't Want to Get Hurt.. But You Want To Be in Love..
You Understand.. But Then You're Over It..
When You Feel like Love is Not in Your Favor.. And You Don't Benefit..
But The Fact of The Matter is..
I Mean You Know What Love is.. What it Brings..
You Think You Do..
Well You Think You Know Enough.. To Do The Right Thing..
And Because Most of The Times.. You Feel Like It's Right..
And If It Was Wrong..
The Feelings Wouldn't Be So Strong..
But Yet in Still You Love..
Well You Try..
And When Trying is Not Enough.. You Criticize..
Emphasize..
The Single Life..
You Question.. Life As You Have Known It Too Be..
Questioning.. Love and It's Chemistry..
And Why You Never Seem to React..
Questioning.. Why You Give Love and Why You Never Really Get It Back..
I Mean You Have All The Ingredients to Make Real Love..
At Least Produce..
But Then You Sit Back and Think What's The Use...
Because No One Will Ever Understand You..
The Way You Love..
The Way You Care..
The Way You Share..
I Mean You've Changed..
For The Good..
But Why Can't See Anyone See..
That I Have Enough Hard of a Time Loving Me..
So At Times Yes I Replace Lust with Love..
I'll Admit Sex is My Drug..
I Have Faults.. I'm Not Perfect No One Is.. As You Can See..
I'm Me..
Stop Trying to Change Me..
I'll Be The Same Me..
If You Love Me..
Or Leaved Me..
And Somehow I Feel Lost.. Looking For Something..
I Can't Even Dream of Happiness.. When I Close My Eyes.. I See Nothing..
But Lonely Nights with Sleep..
I Pray to God.. That He'll Bless Me For Loving You.. And He'll Let You See..
Until Then.. I'm Praying For Peace..
Because I Can't Stop Focusing On Why People Seem to Never Trust Me..
Like I'm Just This Bad Person... Pretending to Care.. Like My Sincerity is All an Act..
When It's Just Being Able to Share My Feelings is What I Lack..
Not Afraid Of Commitment..
Because If I Found Someone Who I Could Fall in Love With.. I Swear This Time Would Be Different..
What People Fail to See..
Is That I Hurt Too..
Yes I've Hurt Others.. And If Could Make It Better.. I Would Give The Rest of My Life.. Making It Up to Them.. It's Nothing I Wouldn't Do..
It's Just Hard Sometimes..
To Express And Say The Things That On My Mind..
What If You Don't Feel The Same Way?
What If What I Say Makes You Want to Leave and Not Stay?
Everyone Swears That I'm Full of Games.. And I Always Play..
Never Serious.. Hardly Real..
And You Could Never Possibly Imagine How That's Makes Me Feel..
When You Think All I Do Is Lie...
Like All I Really Wanna Do is Make You Cry..
When All I Want You to Be is Happy.. With or Without Me..
You Will Never Know..
How Much You Mean to Me.. Because My Feelings.. I Will Never Show..
I Swear It's So Hard..
To Listen to You Tell Me.. You Don't Want Me... Need Me.. Like I'm Supposed to Disregard..
My Feelings..
I'm Not Willing..
To Let You Go..
I Just Wish You Could Read My Mind.. See My Thoughts..
Know That When I Was Lost..
You Found Me..
Surrounded Me..
Supported Me..
You Know Me...
Believed in Me..
Seen Right Through Me..
You Know That This Life That I Live..
If You Really Said You Wanted to Be With Me.. This Life.. The People.. I Would Trade It All In or Up.. I Would Give..
It's Difficult to Say Here's The Key to My Heart.. You'll Always Have a Place to Stay.. Please Use It..
When I Do All Of This Just to Feel Stupid..
When I Misinterpret.. Read All The Wrong Signs..
You Tell Me You Love.. And I Tell You I Can See Myself with You.. But We Both Know Love is Blind..
You Say Prove To You..
That I Love You.. But I Can't Physically Imply..
That You Made Me Realize..
Love Again.. So I Try To Hide..
Maybe I Should Write You a Letter..
Would That Make Us Better..
Would You Acknowledge Me.. As Someone You Could See Yourself Being With.. Honestly...
Maybe If I Texted..
That You Were The Best..
Thing That Ever Happened to Me..
Would That Make You See..
I'm Trying..
I'll Stop Lying..
Stop Keeping Things..
Share My Revelations..
Stop Holding On To Information..
I Just Know That If I Shared My Soul..
It Would Make You Look at Me Different.. And Low and Behold..
You'll Look at Me and My Love Like it's Suspect..
When I Just Wanna Love You on Every Aspect..
I Don't Want You To Judge Me..
I Just Want You To Love Me.. Unconditionally...
I Just Want You To See Me As Your Beginning and Ending..
The Only One Your With.. And The One Whose Time Your Always Spending....
And To Tell U The Truth..
This.. I'm Not Used Too..
Someone Needing..
Someone Meeting..
Me Halfway..
You're My Sooner Than Later.. And Maybe One Day..
I Can Say..
Excuse Me..
This is The New Me..
Please Bare With Me..
Be Patient With Me..
Today I Stopped Hiding...
And Started Confiding..
But I Just Need to Know..
Will You Stay or Go..
When I'm Ready to Tell You.. Will You Be There..
Be Able to Embrace This Together.. I Hope This Experience.. We Both Can Share..
I Just Need to Know.. Can I Count On You.. To Understand..
To Listen.. As a Friend..
Please Know That We Will Get It Together One Day..
If You Can Look Beyond My Faults.. And Love Me Inspite of My Mistakes..
Then We'll Keep Trying Till We Get It Right.. We'll Both Promise To Make It Work.. And Do Whatever It Takes...